Late Night Musings #1

hello my sleepy bunnies!

{it's currently 12:32am for me!}

I apologize for the lack of blog posts. I just haven't had any inspiration to blog recently. But I swear, my Hyuna Red Inspired Makeup Tutorial will be up by Sunday. I took the pictures and everything last week... >.< I just didn't feel like writing the post. I'm such a horrible #bblogger. 

But anyway...tonight I just felt like making a really quick blog post for you guys about the mumble jumble thoughts going on in my head. Once the moon rises to the sky and darkness takes over, my mind tends to wander more than usual, hence the title of this post: Late Night Musings. {I really love the word muse by the way. ^_^ It just gives me the happys~} After my 1 year anniversary on blogger, I promised myself that I would make my blog not only about beauty, but of my personal life as well. I like using this blog to reflect on my experiences in life so far. It sorts out what I've done in my life and what I need to do in the future. 

Late Night Musings is going to be the start of a series on my blog where I just write about some of the thoughts that pop up in my head during well...the late night! It could be about anything ranging from...homework, to family, to friends, or even to hobbies. But don't be surprised if the topic starts to jump around as you read the blog post. My mind wanders a lot especially at night and sometimes never focuses on one specific thing. Plus it's bedtime. I probably had a busy day and if I don't make sense in some of my sentences than...well...I need my sleep. Huehuehue

If you'd like to read my first Late Night Musings post, please keep reading!  {If not...it's fine. :3 These personal lifestyle posts are mainly just for me anyway~}

Thank you to anyone that reads beyond this point! I love you. And you guys deserve a cookie. If only I had a cookie....I really want a cookie. Chocolate Chip Cookie straight out of the oven sounds so good right now. Yummm~ If only my house had an oven...sad face. :(

If you guys didn't know, I'm in love.

With writing. 

{if you guys thought I would say a guy, huehuehue ;)}

Fiction writing to be more specific. There's just something about fiction writing that just makes me so...happy inside. When I write, my mind is no longer on Earth but rather in the world of my own creations. I love feeling like God and having the power to do whatever I want to the characters and my world in my stories. Trust me...the power to create my fantasies alone sends me on a rush of new discoveries about myself and my fellow work of arts. 

I could spend hours upon hours, days upon days, turning the pages of books and typing away on my computer. I'm 1000% nerd inside. I love books. I love the smell of new books the most. The smell of any books actually. I remember when I was little, library books smelt like love to me. I still love the smell of library books, 10+ years later. If I could I would spend 24/7 cuddled on a couch reading in a library. I'm really thankful I grew up loving books. Thank you mother! I guess that's when I started on my nerd streak. I always had a thing for reading and I loved English. Even though I hated all the essays and sucked at figuring out the underlying message authors wrote in their published works. Plus my grammar sucks and my forte is fiction writing. Not boring research papers. 

It was in 9th grade when I started writing on my own. Actually...earlier if you count the time in my childhood when I wrote a story about a...turtle? or maybe it was a dolphin. And her adventures in the underwater sea. It started off as FanFiction. It was really easy borrowing characters and their personalities. I remember writing my first story and publishing the first chapter. It's an amazing feeling getting your first review with them literally begging you to update. I mean an actual human being is telling you they love your story. Big ego booster for my little ninth grade self~

After that, writing became my outlet. 

It became something I loved. I started writing outside of FanFiction about my very own life and my silly teenage struggles. I became a shy girl growing up, and high school definitely made me more introverted then ever. With just me and my mind, I built my own fantasy world with the characters in my stories, or the characters in books I've read. My fantasy world is still very much alive to this day. And I have a feeling it won't disappear ever. FanFiction led me to start writing my own stories. My own characters. My own world. It started off small, little one-shots here and there. But now, I'm ready to start bigger. To go bolder. 

My dream one day is to publish a book. 

If there's anything I want to happen in my life, it's to accomplish that dream. I actually discarded that dream during the last 2 years of my high school life. Becoming an author, or even trying to pursue that career would be suicide. I knew I needed to find a career where I'd actually make money. Becoming an author would not do that for me unless I write a novel series that is as popular as Harry Potter, or Twilight. I didn't have faith in myself to create a series that good. I mean...my grammar is the worst and I have a major procrastination problems. But still, my dream one day was to publish a book. I want to hold the book in my hands and leaf through each page. I want to be able to smell the parchment the pages give off. I want to see the smiles, see the awe, see the wide eyes on readers as they skim through the word written down. My words.  Just thinking about it makes my heart race. 

Tonight, I'm realizing that dream again. Except this time, I'm going to do everything in my power to make that dream come true. I made a mistake and stopped writing during the last two years of my life. This summer, I started writing again and it's like I never stopped. And now, I won't stop. I'll continue to write and I'll continue to grow my fantasy world until I see my name on a hardcover or a paperback book. 

I hope if I'm still blogging during that time, I'll let you guys know when that happens. :) 

I'll end my Late Night Musings here. It's now 2:10am~ I should sleep...but I'm probably going to go back to writing my story. Huehuehue~

Goodnight loves!

Until next time, 

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